To “clear hear”. Some may actually hear the voice audibly through their ears, and some (like me) hear it in their brain. Yes, there is a difference. Hearing people in your brain isn’t always a fun thing to experience while growing up. Luckily for me, I had an understanding parent that allowed me to be who I am and didn’t cart me off to a mental institution, unlike so many others in the past centuries. My saving grace, aside from my understanding parent, was my assumption that everyone heard what I heard. I was raised to never pry into others’ lives; this mixed with thinking I was an average everyday run of the mill person, made me lucky when it came to avoiding outside judgement. I grew up as normal as life permits and lived with my gifts privately and silently.

The way I describe my clear hearing is by visualizing it as a radio. Sometimes the tuning isn’t so great so it sounds like static, but sometimes it is tuned just right and sounds like someone turned the volume all the way up in your head. I admit, I hear things constantly, but with practice I have learned to turn the volume down. If I am tired on the other hand, all bets are off. There is no turning it down, it is like having 50 radios set on the highest volume, all going at the same time. It is utterly maddening.

Imagine yourself in a crowded room where everyone is trying to talk over one another. Then imagine that crammed in your head, where no one but you can hear it. Now imagine for a moment that you are actually in a crowded room full of ridiculously loud people, and you already have that kind of chatter going on in your head. Wouldn’t you run screaming out of the room? Maybe try to find some quiet place? Anybody would, right? BUT YOU CAN’T. You have to stand there and play nice and act like a normal member of society. You have to pretend you don’t hear it, you have to make social connections for school or work, you have to keep up appearances, and you can’t just become a recluse. Just imagine the amount of self-control it takes to accomplish the simple everyday motions of acting normal.

After a while you become so used to pretending it doesn’t exist, that the voices actually do fade away. Most people let them go and never try to get them back, who could blame them? Me, I’m one of the crazy ones. I missed the voices, missed the connection I had to that other realm, and missed how I could help others by simply listening. Even if I had wanted my abilities to fade away they never would have, because I was also unique in another way… I became very sick when I pushed the voices away. I went through a terrible clinical depression, lost astronomical amounts of weight, and had basically allowed myself to deteriorate. Letting those voices back in was the beginning of my journey to finding my true self.

Another example of clear hearing is just like walking around the streets of a big bustling city. If you tried to listen to what everyone around you was saying most of what you hear is utter nonsense. Not every voice you hear is going to be some spirit looking for help. Sometimes it is just hearing the middle of conversations and wondering, “Gosh, I came into that conversation at the wrong time.” You just sit back and let the spirits around you chatter away, and you mind your business. Then, on a very rare and special occasion, you happen upon a spirit that you connect with. One that approaches you with every intent to get to know you and maybe ask you for advice. It is magical and rare. It is in those moments, even if it is brief, which can make your whole life change. Like meeting a soul mate, it can feel the same on any plain of existence.

Even at a young age I was torn with the internal debate of whether or not this was a gift or a curse. The effort to maintain normalcy is exhausting. But I have found that we are all unique and we all have hidden talents that we are afraid to share. The fear may come from the possibility of being judged, or maybe a fear of not being good enough. Regardless, these gifts where given to you and they will always be a part of you. Stand up and be who you are, you are one of a kind and no one can take that from you. Be good to yourself, love yourself, and be proud of yourself.

Go with light and love.

Have you ever gone into your favorite coffee shop, the same coffee shop you have been going to for years, and you get your favorite everything (latte, cinnamon roll, newspaper) …but today something just isn’t the same? You sit there wondering, “Do I have a cold or a headache coming on?” “Why can’t I find joy in my favorite spot with my favorite drink? The weather is beautiful, everything is how is should be, I feel fine, I was happy a minute ago…but now, I feel like something came over me.” Anger or a sadness so deep you think it came from a gapping black whole of nothingness. There is no reason for this feeling. Then you start to wonder…is it even my feeling at all?

Clairsentience is also known as “Clear feeling”. You feel it all with this wonderful ability, which can be helpful or downright annoying at times. If you research this ability you will find a whole lot of people telling you the same thing…“You just feel it. You will learn to harness it over time.”

I call bullshit. Most Empaths and Psychics feel stuff 24/7, I mean, what else is new? “Learn to harness it”, for real? That’s all you got for me? What happens when your feelings never feels the same? What if there are no emotional patterns? No consistencies? What happens when you don’t know where the emotions came from? What happens when you ride public transit every day, to and from work, and you feel like you never get a private emotion for yourself?

I’m here to tell you with tough love…it will never get easier. You just have to learn to cope with what you feel every moment of every day. There is no harnessing this ability, there is no control, it will always come in waves…and just like the ocean, the minute you think you have it figured out, a rogue wave comes along and envelopes you. The very second you feel complacent in your abilities, turning your back to the sea, next thing you know there is a swell covering your head, giving you a face of sand, and disorienting you so badly that you don’t know which way is up. My advice is to understand that you will always change, your surroundings will always change, you will always learn new things, you will always encounter new people; therefore you will always have to keep your eyes on the rising and falling waves.

We each come up with our own coping skills that work specifically for you. No two coping mechanisms are alike. Here are a few of mine, which I hope help some of you cope in your day to day life.

• I stopped riding all forms of public transit. I keep herb satchels and protective stones in my car to create barriers.
• I only allow a minimal amount of electronics into my bedroom because the EMF fields cause spikes in activity.
• I do not watch the news, the last thing I need to do is subject myself to the worlds fear. If I do, it is minimal and it is read in blog format.
• I keep satchels of rosemary under my pillow to ward off nightmares.
• I put Black Tourmaline under my mattress to create a protective shield while I sleep.
• I have cut off friends who emotionally drain me or use me as an energy feeding source.
• I put meditation music on at work in order to drown out the chatter of emotions coming off of everyone around me.
• I am self-aware and know when my threshold has been met – it is time to take a vacation.
• I keep a blanket in my trunk because I know if I have a panic attack it helps to wrap myself in it until I feel better.
• I know when I need to take a “mental day” from work.
• I always (and I mean always) trust my first instinct and I am never discouraged if it turns out wrong.
• I turn off all electronics for a few hours at a time every few days.
• I do not watch horror movies.

The list goes on and on, but the truth is that it will always be different and you should always treat it as a case-by-case basis.

People with the ability to feel clearly become incredible investigators as they grow older and develop their skills. People that are clairsentient can enter a room and assess each person’s emotion and mental state within minutes of entering. If you are one of these people, and are able to do this, try to keep yourself objective. I know that sounds like a tall order and near impossible, considering the ability is to feel everything, but it is possible on occasion to step back and “see the forest for the trees”. Always be aware of your surroundings! Your feelings may not be your own, but if you step back and take a look at the bigger picture It might start to make sense. Take a look around you, everyone is going through something intense and powerful. You are feeling all those lives at one time. Take a deep breath and just feel, write down the feelings you pick up around you. Don’t try and make sense of it now, just write it down. Don’t filter yourself or try to put what you feel into context. If all you write down is that “Yellow makes you feel sad.” You did a great job. Maybe you were sitting next to someone in that coffee shop that had just gotten broken up with and the flowers that were at the table in between them the night before were yellow tulips. Whatever the scenario, don’t put so much pressure on yourself. Write it down and let it be cleansed from you. By simply acknowledging that it was felt should be enough.

Take precautions in your day to day life in order to give yourself breaks. Be kind to yourself. Trust yourself. Life doesn’t get easier, but you will get stronger.

Go with light and love.

Premonition is defined as “a strong feeling that something is about to happen.” We all have that feeling sometimes, don’t we? That is what it’s like having worries or anxiety, I wouldn’t call that having a premonition. But that is how the great google-gods have defined it! We mustn’t question the great google-machine, shall we? May the google-gods smite me, I do! I question it.

I come from a long line of perpetual worry-warts and anxiety-ridden individuals. Having a sense of something looming in the distance is the story of my life! So, the question is…how do I determine which is purely worry, versus actual premonition?

Well, I’ll tell you. Familiarity. The definition is simply put, ‘close knowledge of something’. What would happen if we combined the two definitions? “A strong, close knowledge of something about to happen.” Doesn’t that somehow sound a little more on the mark? Or is it just me? I realize it essentially means the same thing, but for some reason, preplacing the word ‘feeling’ with ‘knowledge’ makes it sound absolute.

Is Familiar-Premonition even a thing? Because it should be.

It has taken me a long time to figure out the difference, but I have noticed a pattern in my feelings. This may not be the same for every psychic out there, but it is my way.

Have you ever gone somewhere and sworn that you had been there before? But you know you never have. Have you ever had Déjà vu so badly that you feel like you are stuck in some sort of matrix situation? THAT. That very feeling is what I am talking about. That is Claircognizance (or Familiar-Premonition!? Still not a thing? Well, I thought I would try.). You simply know because you have seen it before, you don’t know where, but you have.

The first time I ever felt it was when I was 5 years old. I was sitting in the back of my mom’s car and I felt the intense urge to tell my mother something I had seen. I pointed at the cigarette lighter and said, “Did you know that TV’s will be hooked from that?” My mother laughed so hard, she thought I had lost my mind. I insisted again that it was true, once again she chuckled…then she went silent and told me to quiet down because she was driving. This was in the mid to late 1980’s, power adapters for the car may have been a glimmer in inventors eyes at that point, but it sure as heck wasn’t  widely available. I didn’t care what people thought of my visions, I knew I had seen them and they were real. That was all I cared to know.

These types of events happened repeatedly while growing up. I always had an intimate knowledge of family history and events that had happened before I was born. I knew how to speak German as a young child, with no possible education or tutoring to explain the knowledge. I had a vast ability to identify flowers, down to the scientific name, and I could not even read yet. I had dreams of family members that were not born yet. I knew of war and fighting tactics and styles. All of this was before the internet became widely available and TV was still a luxury for us lower middle class start-up families.

The love of my life, whom I live with now, owns a house that the second I looked at it, I knew I would live in it. It felt like home and family to me. Mind you, we had only gone on a couple of very casual coffee and lunch dates, there was no way I could have known at that time that 2 years later it is the house I now call home. If I must be specific, it was the trees. Surrounding the home is pretty dense well-grown older trees. I stepped out the back door and felt greeted like I was coming home to old friends. It was a truth I felt in them, before I could have possibly known, but by seeing this and feeling this I knew. This was my home and this person will be the love of my life. Sure enough, here I am. We built a home together, not physically, but emotionally. We are making memories together, after all this time.

My advice to you is to keep that in mind. Don’t write it off as Déjà vu. Sit back and think about it. Keep a journal, heck, keep many journals! Put them everywhere; in your car, at your desk, in your day bag. Write down all things familiar, date and time stamp the things you write down. You will be shocked with what you find out. Sometimes the things you know don’t come to light for several years, but they do eventually, and having that account will really blow your mind. Not to mention, it will also teach you to trust yourself and the knowledge you feel so deep in you to be right.