How I Knew

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My first idea that I was different was when I was about 5 years old. I had an “imaginary friend” named Beth; she was dressed like someone out of the Anne of Green Gables books. A little brown haired girl from the early 1900’s, she was my friend and my playmate for many years.

During the same time, I remember dancing amongst the trees in my back yard and I could hear and feel them. They would dance with me, swaying to the beat I had in my head and the humming of my throat. One of my favorite things to do was to raise my arms up in the air and feel my energy flow out of my hands. I could make the wind come and cause rain to start at will.

Beth would join me while I danced in the wind. One day she told me that I needed to go home and stop dancing in the wind. I never knew why exactly, but being young and pure I knew to trust her. My only guess was that someone had noticed my activities in my suburban straight-laced neighborhood, which would have gotten me in trouble. I never danced in those trees again.

After that it was many years of awkward growing and the deterioration of my family. My spirits always followed me around, but I was always instructed never to speak to them out loud. It was accepted in my family that I “knew” things, but it was unacceptable to look different in the eyes of the outside world. I grew very good at playing my part as the well behaved daughter and perfectly normal productive member of society. It was clear to me that any oddities would be overlooked as long as I maintained outward normalcy. This did not simply apply to being a Psychic, it applied to all aspects of my life and personality traits.

Behind closed doors I was allowed to talk to spirits and not be judged. I had endless amounts of journals to write in when I needed to get my thoughts out. But for the most part it was like living with an adoptive family, you never felt like you fully belonged there or had any real connection with them. I was a kind of different that they would never understand.

I always had at least two spirits around me throughout my life. They would come and go, giving me the emotional support I needed during certain parts of my life. Sometimes they would find me and sometimes I would find them, but for the most part I had lovely experiences. I was never haunted by evil things or stalked by black masses. I always knew that if I didn’t like a certain entity I could make it go away, for good if I had to. There was no doubt in my mind that I had all the power I needed to take control of the energy circling around me. Therefore I was never messed with or treated badly by spirits.

As for an actual definitive moment in which I realized I was a psychic, I just never had one. It was more of a growing feeling from a young age, I just felt different than most people. I realize that most people feel that way while growing up, but with me it was a constant reminder that maybe I would just never fit in anywhere. I had come to terms at a young age that I might have to live with this, alone, forever. I may not have peers or friends that I could confide in about these things. It was a process to get through, but I eventually learned to embrace it. How amazing it was to find out that I wasn’t alone after all these years. There are peers out there, I did find friends that understood, and I even found a partner that understands. Never lose hope. Life has a way of giving you things that you never thought you would have. One of them is hope.

Go with light and love.



Clear seeing. The most popular of abilities, everyone tends to claim that they have this ability, when in actuality people tend to hear or feel more than they see.

Spirits are not always stable, especially because they are created by an ever-shifting level of energies. They “jump” from place to place, they fade in and out, they can never focus their attention for very long, and it is rarely like the movies.

I get my initial visual information out of the corner of my eye. Over the years I have trained myself to stop in my tracks and focus on not looking directly at them, and then I study them through my peripheral vision. I have a much harder time seeing them straight-on, whether that is my issue or theirs, I am not certain, but I make due. If I do look at them straight on, I tend to only see an outline. I have to be very focused and clear-headed to see more, but it is possible and I have done it. Seeing spirits will zap the energy right out of your physical body though, so you really have to be careful.

The first thing I will tell you; the spirits cannot harm you if you do not allow it. Believe this, you have to feel it straight through to your core. That way, you will never be harmed. If you ever feel like a spirit is not being respectful, get out and get away. Put up your protection if you haven’t already (which I highly recommend doing so beforehand) and shake off any negative energy that may have latched onto you.

Spirits should be polite and respectful. I do not tolerate anything less. If they invade your space, tell them that, and kindly ask them to back off. If they are being mischievous and it bothers you, tell them to please stop. If they do not, tell them that they are not welcome there is they are not going to follow the rules. You politely demand that they treat you with respect.

My advice to you if you are seeing weird shit; If you come across a really weird energy or a spirit that looks menacing, KEEP ON WALKING. Don’t mess with it, don’t talk to it. Don’t go into the creepy house where those murders were rumored to have happened and “check it out”, don’t do it…just put your head down, your protective bubble up, and keep moving. There is no shame in avoiding a bad feeling, just don’t let avoidance rule your life.

I drive by this certain street on a regular basis and there is always a big dark mass-of-a-being standing at the end, where the two roads intersect. Cars have a tendency to break down there and animals avoid that stretch of road. Initially I noticed it by being curious of the energy, and then I became fearful of it. Now, I am tired of being afraid, so whenever I drive by – I stare it down, hard. It is a process, it took me 6 months to get enough courage to assert myself and my energy, but the point is that I work hard every day to acknowledge the fear and conquer it.

Seeing spirits can be complicated, they love to mask themselves. If a spirit is insecure then they may disguise themselves as a very large individual. If a spirit wants to catch you off-guard or get your defenses down, they will sometimes disguise themselves as a child or something innocent. Never take a spirits looks at face value, always wait for the other shoe to fall. When communicating with spirits you will have to trust your instincts fiercely, you know what is best for that situation. Just keep an eye out and never push aside a gut feeling when the situation doesn’t seem right.

An apparition that is “full bodied” is a rare thing to come across. It takes a seriously large amount of energy to have a spirit seen by and average person. It has happened, but like I said, it is super rare. If you ever come across a spirit that looks like a regular person, consider yourself a part of the lucky few.

If you wish to interact with a spirit and really have a conversation with them, try dream recognition or astral projection. Those are much easier. Since your brain goes into a fully relaxed and open state, it is easier to communicate between worlds. Less energy of the spirit is spent, your logical side of your brain isn’t going to push away the abstract, and in turn it creates a lovely environment for the impracticable to become a reality.

Crystal balls are only good for raising energies. You cannot “see” things in them. If someone starts rubbing a big ball of stone, gazing deeply into it, and starts talking about seeing your future…they are putting on an act for you. They may have abilities, but they are bringing out the theatrics to increase the wow-factor.

The best way to protect you from negativity is to simply not tolerate it. Negative things don’t have to affect your life and how you feel. Instead of getting irritated or angry, look at the negative like it was a toddler that needs to learn a lesson. A firm and monotone “No” will do. No justifications, no explanations, no raised voices. Just confidently say no. Spirits and energies respect a person with consistent convictions and boundaries. They have no one else to talk to and nowhere else to go, they have to follow your rules or they don’t get to play the game.

One last tidbit of advice for the road. Here is a random opinion of mine about the tarot, even though it doesn’t fit into the Clairvoyant spectrum, it is more Clairsentient.

Tarot readings are a person’s perspective on symbols that are being shown to them about you and your life. They don’t know you, they don’t know your life, and therefore these symbols could be interpreted (or misinterpreted) in any way. Be careful with this! If the tarot reader is negative, they will tell you negative readings. Take the reading with a grain of salt. Have you ever tried to talk about a book with someone after you both read it? Each of you will have very different interpretations of what was said or what was deemed important to the plot line. That is the same for the tarot. I suggest you get a tarot deck and start researching for yourself, which is truly the only way for you to receive what you are truly meant to hear.

Good Luck! Go with light and love.