This is a bit of a serious topic and may not be fun for you all to read about, but bear with me. This is one of those things that some of you may also be battling with, therefore I want to breach the subject in order to open up a dialog. Now, let’s get down to business…
I suffer from Night Terrors and I believe that majority of psychics suffer from them as well. They are nightmares that bleed into your awakened reality. It is when my brain takes its fears and insecurities, mixes them with stress and sleep walking, which turns them into a distorted mess of crazy. I wake up more exhausted than I was before I laid down to sleep. They plague me for days, haunting my everyday life. They take the sparkle from my eyes and replace it with numbness. Majority of my bad days are a direct result of these occurrences.
That is my description/opinion of them, but here is what Wikipedia says they are, more specifically what separates them from every day nightmares; “The universal feature of night terrors is inconsolability, very similar to that of a panic attack. During night terror bouts, people are usually described as ‘bolting upright’ with their eyes wide open and a look of fear and panic on their faces. They will often scream. Furthermore, they will usually sweat, exhibit rapid breathing, and have a rapid heart rate. In some cases, individuals are likely to have even more elaborate motor activity, such as a thrashing of limbs—which may include punching, swinging, or fleeing motions. There is a sense that the individuals are trying to protect themselves and/or escape from a possible threat of bodily injury. Although people may seem to be awake during a night terror, they will appear confused, be inconsolable and/or unresponsive to attempts to communicate with them, and may not recognize others familiar to them. Occasionally, when a person with a night terror is awakened, they will lash out at the one awakening them, which can be dangerous to that individual. Most people who experience this do not remember the incident the next day. Sleepwalking is also common during night terror bouts, as sleepwalking and night terrors are different manifestations of the same parasomnia.”
They have always been a factor with me, especially when it comes to ghosts and energies. The spirits see it as a loophole, as an easy way into my subconscious. They will add to the mayhem and confusion, leaving you wondering what is ‘you’ and what is ‘them’. The lines between your own memories and what the spirits went through can blur, which makes you feel displaced.
For me, since I am a lucid dreamer, the major difference about night terrors and regular dreams is that I cannot control them. No matter how intense the night terrors get, I am along for the ride. Another factor that sets my situation apart is that I do remember my night terror experiences, I am not sure why I do, but one day I am hoping to figure that out. Thankfully the remembrance keeps me connected to who I am, because it can get a bit dicey when it is like doing a Vulcan Mind Meld on about 8 people at once. If you get that reference, then you know what’s up.
The fact that I am a Clairsentient Empath tends to make the night terrors multifaceted. I wake up with memories and knowledge of things that I did not have the previous day, which may sound pretty awesome at first – that is until those memories incorporate very graphic imagery that can be quite a shock to witness. While this ability can give information, it can also take away. I may have a vast array of knowledge one day, but it could potentially disappear overnight as well; leaving my mind ready for new information to be “downloaded” by the next spirit. I may retain a few morsels of information here and there, but I believe my brain has a fail-safe that keeps me from becoming too overburdened, by routinely clearing its “cache” on occasion. Which just means it will wipe out all information that is not used as a primary functional need. In layman’s terms, I may remember how to tie my shoes or how to operate a vehicle, but I will forget birthdays and what my favorite dessert is. Pretty neat, huh? NOPE.
I have never gone to anyone to talk about this subject, nor do I think I need to go to anyone. It is manageable and does not affect my day-to-day life. I keep extensive notes and calendars in order to counteract any memory deficiencies. I have found that taking regular vitamins help reduce some of the sleeplessness and anxiety that comes from the experiences. I generally take care of my physical and mental health as well as I can, because everyone should, but if I were completely honest with you all – I wouldn’t want this to go away. What if ‘curing’ this meant ‘curing’ my mind of any other abilities I have? That is not OK with me. This is a part of me that I have adapted to, I like myself and wouldn’t change me for anything in the world.
Like I said, this is me opening a conversation with you all. I am not a doctor, I have no training or credentials in any of this information, and I do not claim to have all the answers. All I have to give is my support, which I will give freely if needed. If any of you have been through something similar and have more information, please pass it on to me.
For support, information, or just random questions about any subject, my email address is yugenexistence@gmail.com .
Go with light and love.